Saying Goodbye

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard

Winnie the Pooh

I have dreaded writing this post.  I have put it off and delayed it as long as possible.  But it is time to say Goodbye.

Like writing this post I have been dragging my feet in accepting the fact I am leaving.  I keep thinking M A Y B E, just maybe, I will wake up and it will all be a dream and then I see the moving truck pull up outside our flat– B A M- reality hits me right in the face.  To say I am attached to London and to our life here is an understatement.  To say I am in love with London and the happiness I feel here does not do it justice.  This has been the best experience of my life and even as I sit and write today words escape me and my eyes fill with tears.

Photos: Victoria Metaxas 

shop the look: denim // sweater // shoes // clutch <similar> // jacket

It was not my intention to perfectly match my guy Big Ben but it turned out to be a magical shoot and I am so glad I choose this outfit.  This sweater is so light weight and pretty over-sized that I wanted to ensure I was not drowning in it and turns out I can not stop wearing it ( FYI it comes in a couple other colors including pink).  It is a great weave but is a bit breezy without a tank underneath.  Truth be told I was absolutely freezing during this shoot but it was all worth it!!  These jeans are currently on sale and I love the small subtle kick flare at the bottom.  Paired with these sleek nude heels the jeans can really be worn day to night!  Speaking of these heels they are really becoming a staple for me and you can expect to see them styled a couple times coming soon!!! Because the outfit was pretty neutral in color I added a bright blue clutch for a pop of color <similar>.  This bag also has a shoulder strap to be worn as a cross-body which makes it very very versatile.  The coat is a tried and true classic and as I have said in the past I wear it EVERY SINGLE DAY.  I am such big fan of jackets with hoods and i just love this faux fur one.

The goodbye…

For many months I have tried to fully grasp what it is about living here that has made this departure so hard?  What are the attributes about life in London that are causing such anxiety and sadness upon leaving? And while there are small little things I believe it is because for the first time in my 34 years I can honestly and truly say I am H A P P Y and C O N T E N T.

I am not seeking something unattainable anymore, I am not wandering through life without a purpose, I am no longer comparing myself to others, I am not seeking constant change and I a not waiting for the next big thing.  I am living life.  London gave me the landscape and drive to LIVE my life.  To find that happiness everyone craves… I have it, here in London.

Now, I know the critics will say happiness should not be defined by a location… and that is true; it should not be… so I am ready to say goodbye to this place.  I need to make space in my heart and my mind for the next chapter- I am ready to be happy in Denver.

Goodbye from London,

P.S. Because of the move and getting settled in Denver I plan to only have a blog post once a week for a couple weeks.  Stay tuned on Instagram as I will continue my journey there.  Make sure to subscribe below so you get the next live post to you inbox!!