Colorful Chaos

Today I have written 4 separate posts and deleted them all.  Here’s to the fifth one being the keeper!! It is colorful in it’s own right and I think you will see the chaos as you read on.

A few snipets of the previous 4 attempts:

1. Two months ago to the day I left London   Closing the kitchen door for the last time- I literally stood in the doorway like I was made of stone unable to will myself to close it and walk away. It meant finality and I wasn’t prepared. I am not prepared. A running flashback of all the memories, of Declan playing in the garden, of Brendan and I eating dinner at the table, of our Thanksgiving, of everything we loved so much about this place. All went running through my mind and I am afraid to close the door and leave for fear it will never be the same. 
2. . So  much of our future seems to be dictated by our past.  I remember, when I was younger, wanting to live my life in a proactive way and not a reactive way.  Make choices and decisions because that is what I want not because of a past experience or something else tainting it.  For example, red wine gives me a terrible hangover so I drink white instead- but I love red wine.  But is that fair?  I mean sometime we have to make mature adult decisions but sometimes I just want to make decisions without always weighing out every single potential outcome.
3. Recently I have been doing a lot of thinking as to what I see in regards to how the blog will continue to go.  How do I create a more honest and organic impression on my readers and followers while maintaining my brand?  How do I incorporate the other aspects of my life – my son, my husband, my love for cooking, my new fitness journey, my friends- into a blog that appears to be solely dedicated to fashion??   Any ideas??  No… perfect exactly where I am also!
4. Alert Alert- a different type of post coming!!  In December Brendan and I traveled to Morocco for a long weekend.  We left Declan in London with my mom (who graciously came out to watch him) and boarded a plane for Africa.  I was so excited and anxious about getting away with Brendan and experiencing a new culture, country, continent.  WOW.  Was I in complete and utter shock upon touch down.  Now, I have traveled a fair amount throughout my life but Marrakesh is like nothing I had ever seen.

I think this post is now about my inability to commit, focus and follow through with much.  Honestly friends- I am a complete scatter brain. Anything and everything distracts me,  I am constantly changing my mind, my emotions, my clothes, my outlook and my hand lotion.  I am always thinking about something other than what I am doing or supposed to be doing.  Hence the 4 attempts at a blog post.  Now, I do think you see a few of these come to fruition in the next couple months; once I am able to focus and put pen to paper and write- but until then you are left with this mess!!!

Photos: Jenna Sparks Photography 

shop the look: denim // top // shoes // necklace <similar> // Clutch //

This colorful casual comfortable look kind of feeds into my inability to get focused. I have been obsessing over gray tops but am so distracted by all the colorful chaos of springtime colors.  Seriously, loving the bright colorful pops of this outfit but then I am drawn back to the basic neutrals of gray and distressed denim… its like I am chasing squirrels.  ALL OVER THE PLACE.  So, this top is super easy to wear, comes in a ton of colors and is very reasonably priced. Perfect for spring and cool summer nights. These distressed skinnies are a few seasons old but still a favorite pair of mine, so I have linked the closest pair I could find.  I know my days of denim are limited so I am trying to wear as many as I can before the temps are in the 90’s here in Denver and these babies are keepers!!!  These mules are the perfect transitional shoe, I know I talked about that in this post but I can’t stress enough how practical, functional and super cute they are.  LOVE THEM.

This colorful clutch was a gift from my SIL from her Mexico travels.  It is a handmade limited edition colorful clutch so head over to Erica Maree designs to snag one up!  She has such beautiful, vibrantly colorful stuff you do not want to miss; especially if you are headed to the beach or sunny location! I have linked several others in similar style <here> and <here> but I would encourage you to check out her website! The necklace was a boutique purchase and I was immediately drawn to the colorful multi-strands… but don’t worry I was quickly running all over the store buying up everything I could find because I could not focus on any one thing.  I have linked a few similar colorful necklaces <here> and <here>.  I loved how this bag and this necklace were the perfect colorful accessories to jazz up my gray obsession.
*** I have been really loving smaller boutiques and pop-up shops so not everything I wear is linkable. I try my best to find similar items but I also need to stay true to me and wear what I love!!!***

colorful chaos

That is my life in a nutshell, friends.  I start a task, find something new to do half way through, sit down to drink some coffee, run off to play with Declan, end up talking the dog for a walk and yet… still nothing is getting accomplished over here in my world. Kid you not, this post was started and deleted at least four times and this fifth one was a struggle.  I try making to do lists but can never seem to finish them, I try setting reminders in my phone but then silence them…. I write and leave sticky notes around the house and Declan steals them… no hope people!!!  Let me clarify and say I know the reality is that I have too much on my mind, too many moving parts and too few “life tools” to deal with it all. This is a self made problem and therefore only myself can come out of it.  In all honesty, it isn’t all bad- I feel like each day I am learning something new about my life, or how to parent Declan, or which cosmetics I like, or which Sauviognon Blanc goes best with toddler food, how many times my coffee can be re-heated in the morning.  You know LIFE.  So, if you need me I’ll be over in my corner of the world indulging in my colorful chaos… come on over and stay a while.

With Love,